THE TRAGIC TRUTH ,

Tuesday, October 31, 2006

today's my first day of work in the office. i feel kinda comfortable here. lets hope i can stay in this job long. (: it's seriously boring here. super quiet. and i dont really have things to do yet. the only thing i know how to do now is ans calls. and i answered 3 calls already. i dont even understand what machines are what machines. i'm lucky i can just pass the rest to my manager. but i have to get to know which machines are which. i cant possibly keep passing the phone to my manager. hah.

i'm super hungry now. waiting for lunch time. at 12.30. super hungry la! din eat my breakfast. and i'm starting to feel sleepy. never mind. i think maybe my lunch can perk me up.

alright. i gtg. will be back to blog tonight.

&' the tragic truth .

7:45 PM

cant take all the shit stuffs happening in my life anymore. i want to freaking delete all my old friends from my list. all those who i think arent worthy. i swear, on the 1st. i'll start a total new life. away from all those "ah-lian" friends. GOSH. i'm so darn irritated pls! ARGH! get out of my life la pls!

good things can all come at one time and bad things can also just appear ALL at one time. i really had enough. leave me out of this shit !

DND,
AM xx

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1:22 PM

finally, i decided to leave finz for good by the end of this month. i just got a job today. as an admin assistant at pictureworks(company). great prospect. a new job, a new lifestyle. the pay is considered good for a newbie like me. i've no experience in an office, excluding the times when i helped out at my ex boyfriend's mother office. 1.2k for the first 3 months(probation period) den the pay might increase if i do well during the 3 months. many people said i sure leave halfway de, but i believe i can stay there for long. cos they'll be teaching me lotsa stuffs. lots of benefits la. if i work there for one year, maybe i can get promoted. as said by my boss. the best thing is my boss was one of my customer. ha. cool right? guess finz helped me alot. even though the liquor was harming my body.

well, there are bad points also but not that bad la.. ha. i cant smoke during office hours and even if lunch time i wanna smoke, i will have to go very far. the good thing is i might be able to quit smoking. this job is gonna help me alot, i swear. in experience and knowledge and thinking, i guess. (: its gonna be kinda tough for me the first month. will be under really tight budget. sigh. i really dont know how to survive for the first month.. i need at least 20 bucks one day. for cigg and my meals. i think i might need help from the person who intro-ed me this job or maybe i have to rely on my parents(which i'm reluctant to). sigh. regret not saving my money in the past. now i have to stress on such stuffs. but its a good beginning. i learn from it.

i am really happy that i can find such a good job. friends, CONGRATULATE ME! heh. i finally found my direction to sucess in future. i guess my certs, i'll be getting it once i stable down with my job. it shouldnt be a problem by then. i must really thank lord god for giving me this chance. a chance to do well for my future and a chance for me to make my parents proud of me. ha.

i gotta spend my this months' pay on office wear already. i seriously have no office wear. AT ALL! wonder how i'll look like in office wear. ha. but how to get so many office wear.... my pay wont be enough becos i still got some stuffs to pay for. sigh. maybe i can psycho my father to come out abit of money for me. i hope he will. i think i just get around 3 bottoms den a few tops. at the most, i'll have to repeat my clothes for one month. work only ma.. scared what right? ha.but like funny leh. okay la, shall stop here for today.

gtg talk to my hao peng you on phone first den to bed. tatas~

i miss my sweetheart lots!

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11:53 AM

i cant keep my lil husky already. sigh. mum says she's too big, bro says he has no time and actually i do agree that i have no time too. at first i thought she would do well in my home but she's too playful and big. it isnt as easy as i think. so sad! but its funny how people can change minds so easily. it was all well before she came, my bro says its okay to have a dog. now! no time?! but cant help it la. no ways for me to ask them to let queenie stay.

anyways, maybe she'll do better in other people's place. i guess. so sad la! i thought i could see her grow up. wishful thinking. she adapted to me so fast and i can see she's happy with me around.. but.. oh my! this is so freaking saddening.

i think if a small dog comes along, my mum will agree in having it. anyways, at least smaller dog can stay in their crate. my naughty queenie can just jump out from the crate.. so its more difficult. i hope we'll get a small dog to take over queenie.. cos i'll feel damn lonely.. with queenie around at least i feel a lil more occupied.

queenie's leaving me soon. i think weekends, i can say bye bye. sigh. so sad! nvm.. i'll get over it fast i hope..

gtg.

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10:55 AM

rushed home straight after work jus to see my beloved queenie. i seriously bond well with my queenie. super cute la! haha. i think these few months, my blog posts will all be abt her.

but! still my sweetheart is more important then her, for now. drank quite alot today, mixed almost everything except for martell today. todays' sales is much better then any other sundays. heh. well, played pool today, won many guys. i really improved but.. still cant play in the next tournament. ): so sad right!

okay, i better go get some sleep. i falling asleep liao.

nights,
AM xoxo

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11:31 AM

her eyes are white and blue. (:

not that big after all..

queenie taking her short nap. (:

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7:17 AM

queenie baby, looks big but 3 months only
more photos will be up soon..

just finished settling down my new husky named queenie. super cute okay she!! 3 months only. and so fast she knows me as the owner. she knows how to give me her paw, sit and all those basic stuffs. but super playful. kept licking my face. but still, i love her! heh.

she's gonna get the best of everything. but obviously, i'm not going to pamper her too much. spent alot on her today. starting ma.. its normal i guess. she's just the cutest thing ever. she slept on me just now. took a short nap. so lovable.. heh.

didnt regret getting her anyways. but i'll have to spend a lil more on my expenses cos of this baby here. goddamn cute okay!

haha. okay. thats all for now. gotta go spend more time with queenie. tatas

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6:49 AM

well, yes! i'm certainly gonna get that husky! heh. cant wait!!! pure breed, with injections for like ONLY 800 . cheap right?! ha.

gotta go work again today.. another round of tournament.. i think mine will be on next week tues. hope i'll win. heh. but makes no difference la. cos even if i win, doesnt mean i'll win the next round. think i'll have to remain calm on that day and play really seriously. (:

nothing much happened recently, been going work early these days. din take off unnecessarily. unlike last time, always taking off. that explains the slow cash flow in the past. ha. now almost the same la but abit more to spend now.

alright, i gotta go get ready for work already. might be blogging later in the night.

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1:17 AM

woohoo! i won the match. heh. super happy today. i'm gonna get a husky soon. so many good things happening to me today. great! if only it can happen every single day.

my double skills in pool getting so much better. i lost the first round today but won in the end. the first round was so darn wasted. i doubled my black ball, went in but white ball went in also. so wasted! but anyways, i won! so darn happy. next match is with my in charge. i have confidence in myself. (:

had my hair dyed, but not obvious cos its like black. there's a little bit of dark red but cant see unless under sunlight den might be able to see a little. but never mind la, anyways, i'm gonna get my hair highlighted for free soon again. cos i'm still gonna be a model for my friend at toni & guy. great right! ha.(:

somehow, i feel my english is abit weird today. sounds so cheena. ha.

and for the first time, i din eat the whole freaking day. i even forgot that i haven eaten. din feel hungry either. but in the end when i got home, i ate some stuffs to fill my tummy. cos afraid i'll get gastric.

met up with my sweetheart today. so happy to see him. din bear to leave. but had to cos i was super tired. i'm glad that my feelings are getting stronger. but i dont know if its good or bad. cos i know he'll nvr belong to me. only my close friends know why. (:

okay la, i gotta end here already. wanna watch my show den get my beauty sleep.

ciaos~
AMxoxo

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1:48 PM

finally, someone's out of my house. i'm glad. as in really GLAD! out of my house = out of my life. i've never hated anyone to this extent before. guess she's really too much. i'm not someone who'll hate anybody.

gotta go get ready soon. gonna be a model for toni & guy again. this time, i'll get my hair dyed. haha.

evon intro-ed me a job as a beautician. hope i can get the job. (: but the pay for the first three months damn jialat. 900 only but after i pass the 3 months, my pay wil be much higher. i'll be an idiot if i dont get into the job. hah.

alrights.i gotta go already. will be back later.

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1:28 AM