THE TRAGIC TRUTH ,

Saturday, November 25, 2006

went hard rocks yesterday with twinnie and jialing. met trav's friends over there. wasnt really fun mainly cos they werent much active ppl there. most of them are there to just relax and enjoy the live band. i tell you, i felt really bored. we were actually supposed to go club at momo. but some things cocked up so we changed place. xiaoxin and the rest all went to momo cos it was steph's birthday and they all didnt wanna go hard rocks so left with me, trav and jialing.

okay, maybe not that bad la cos the live band was still okay. went home super early. me and trav went home at around 3. so early pls! lucky i had a few drinks before i went to find them if not, i'll just be so damn bored. dammit, if only i'm already 18! den i can go other places to club. but being young aint such a bad thing. at least i can still take the opportunity to learn more stuffs. (: (this is what i call contradicting.) ha.

i cant wait for my birthday pls! still got less then a month more! i cant wait! heh. i'm always feeling this way one month before my birthday. and i'm already telling everyone that my bdae's coming. haha. all of their reply was like "still got so long!" haha. not that long what. time flies! (: and my pay day's reaching! yay!

k la, i gtg. my stomach's calling me.
TOODLES~

&' the tragic truth .

9:05 PM

i got this from my friendster horoscope thing. "When you are faced with a challenge today, your original mind and unique sense of self-expression will put you at center stage -- and don't be surprised if your performance earns you several curtain calls. This is a new chance for you to shine and put old disappointments behind you. Get ready for a renewed sense of self, as well as a chance to finally make your mark on the world. It might not happen overnight, but it is going to happen sooner than you think."sounds nice to me. (: that's why i decided to share it here in my blog. lets hope its true la hor!

today i was late for work. i just couldnt force myself to get out from bed. getting tired of waking up so early but i have to get used to it. i'm so looking for to the weekends and next week's thurs ( pay day). i cant wait pls! so many things i need to do with the money. but another worry is i have to freaking save money for my bdae. it wont be like a big bday bash kind of thing like some other taitais la. i got no money for that pls! but at least i knw i earn my own allowance and cash. i dont splurge it on things unnecessarily and i dont depend on my parents.

well, guess i'm independent at my age?! okay look, i'm so young and yet i'm working my life away. i'm supposed to be enjoying my youth right! okay, i'll just look on the brightside, i go through a little more then others around my age. not saying i'm effing matured or whatsoever, i'm just stating the facts. though havent gone thru much education but will not let my education fail me, i believe i can sucess in other ways.

living this way aint a good thing either, i have to freaking stress on my bills, stress on whether i have enough to last me the month, stress about "i need to shop!(okay, not that impt but still!!)". i do admit i spend a little of my pocket money on liquor but its just for me to enjoy a little. at least i still got some life there. if not, i'll be like some workaholic. just work and go home then the same thing goes for 5 days every week which is impossible for me. and i tell you, i'm living in poverty right now. only for this month i think. next month maybe a little more cash flow. then january, i will be stable with my money already. i did some calculation. this month's pay will be going down to all my bad debts. which i will want to clear A.S.A.P. seriously hate to be in debts.

work's a bore today. manager not around = not much things to do. its gonna be different once i get hold of everything i need to learn. now i still have my manager to slowly teach me so its like when she's not around means not alot of things to do. when she's around, i'll have a whole bunch of work load to cover but thank god i always finish before 6. i rather be busy then just do nothing and see the time pass so slowly. i'm sure by march you wont be seeing my blogs so often already. i bet i'll have more work load then ever cos by then i reckon i'd have learned quite a number of things already and my manager will be away on maternity leave for approximately 2-3 months.

anyway, i believe i can stay in this job for quite long. cos many benefits and i've got to show that i can do it. life has changed. and i'm starting to love the way i am now. away from all the kids and troubles! (: LOVE IT~!

gtg.

Labels: Independence

&' the tragic truth .

6:13 PM

going club sha sha tonight. super miss tammy! must go find her no matter what. ha. now i'm super free at work. like duh~ if not i wont be blogging. okay, i sound like i'm talking to myself. WTD.. i'm bored..

my boss was super scary just now, he lost his temper and made alot of "bing-bong" noises. its normal for a boss to lose his temper but i was shocked cos when i first saw him at finz, he looks like those kind of the "wont lose temper" kind. den suddenly today i saw this. gosh. scary, i tell you. i dont dare do anything wrong. i must seriously double-check on my work and must of course, not do anything wrong. god bless!

i'm super broke this month and wont be having lots of cash next month either. anyone willing to sponsor? haha. and guess what! i only smoke like half pack of ciggs per day. what a BIG improvement right! heh. okay, maybe not a very BIG improvement la. cos if i go drinking, i'll still be smoking a pack. and another great thing is i only go drinking like twice or only thrice a week. twinnie has been nagging me all day long telling me to stop drinking so much cos one of her friend's friend got hepatitis B from drinking. but now i'm a social drinker what, i dont think it will happen to me, i hope it wont.. hah.

talking abt my twinnie, i miss her la! though i know every night she's sleeping next to me but we havent got a chance to really chat cos when she's back, i'll be asleep. oh shit! i miss her la! there was once she came back early but i was already asleep, she sent me a message saying she missed me and wanted to chat with me but so sad i was asleep. she sounded so sweet and sad in that message. when i saw the message in the morning, i woke up to give her a peck on her cheek and a big lovely hug while she's asleep. LMAO. she's just so lovable pls! but dont get the wrong idea.! she's just my twinnie. and i'd rather die den go crooked. haha.

i cant wait to get off from work, i cant wait to go drinking. i'm craving for beer. can anyone just pass this lady a beer.! a can will satisfy my needs or maybe a bottle? haha. now whoever asks me out, the only place i can think of is anywhere that has alcohol. dont even feel like drinking starbucks anymore. okok, yes i'm a lil bit of alcoholic. just that LITTLE bit okay! i better stop all these talk abt alcohol. if twinnie reads this, i'll be nagged at agn..=x

been thinking of that someone for so darned long already. why cant i just get him off my mind! SIGH. i guessed i havent really moved on. well, time will make this suffering disappear, i hope.

time to get back to work. **END**

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4:16 PM

just came back from doing my nails and lunch at pizza hut. my nails got destroyed like 10 mins after i finished my nail art. so heart pain okay! all thanks to my belt, keep dropping den i have to keep putting it in place and thats when my nails got scratched. shit right! but never mind la, its free anyway. haha. my manager passed me her package. cos she doesnt wan it already.

i'll be back to blog tmr morning. going for drinks. ciaos

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4:44 AM

1 more hour to knock off.. dunno if my lulu wan to go drinking anot. ): have to go have dinner first den decide. i suddenly have this craving to drink as in really strong craving okay! although yst i had some drinks at a friend's bbq. but NOT ENOUGH~ ha.

i'm really alcoholic. oh gosh! i dont wan to be a "jiu gui". heh. well work is really relaxing. for once, i dont find this job boring today cos i kept mself occupied with my own stuffs. ha. asked my friend to send me some fun online games thru email. that covered my boredom for 2 hours. the rest of today was just stare at the com. ha.

okay. i gotta go do some stuffs alr.

ciaos~

&' the tragic truth .

5:19 PM

still at work. another 20 more mins to head home. (: just feel like blogging to pass my time. nothing much to do again. been eating alot of sweets for the whole freaking day. and i really feel i'm putting on alot of weight. i better go home and weigh myself. ha.

i cant be blogging much for now cos someone's coming to fetch me home. (: so maybe i'll just continue blogging tonight. maybe, i said maybe. ha. lets just hope now that my dog doesnt dirty my room, PUH-LEASE! okay, i gtg already.

TATA~
am xx

&' the tragic truth .

1:50 AM

at work now. just finished changing my blogskin. today is a really relaxing day. like i dont even have to do much stuffs. all i did was just stick to the com and do my own personal things. ha. but time passes really slow! i cant wait to go home, i wanna go jogging with my daddy. its time for me to do some exercise after all the fattening food i've been consuming. and sitting all day long, i swear my bum is gonna get so darned big!

well, anyways i'm doing well now. much better, not much complains, been talking to my parents more often and MY BRO IS going for his R.O.M this sat. great! (: bro gets married=one more angbao. haha. =x kidding! i'm just happy for him la. after so long and at his age he should seriously get married already.

wondering whats my little queenie doing at home now. if trav isn't home, i bet she's chewing on whatever she sees in my room. and that seriously is getting me worried! she bit my bear, my favourite bear, something which i cant get to sleep without it! i was so darned frustrated, i tell you! but afterall she's a dog, i cant possibly abuse her what right!

while being so free, i cant keep my mind off someone. sigh. so wanting to drop him an sms but dont know wat to say. ): how how how! this feeling sucks big time! once i'm bored or have free time, i'll start having flashbacks on the happy moments we had together. sigh. guess i shall find other things to keep me busy for now.

i think i shall end here for today

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4:50 PM