finally got a burden off my head. like really FINALLY! though i dont feel really good about it but it's better this way, i guess. i've never felt so much love from my family for so long. it's really heartwarming to know that i have my family's care and concern. everytime i think of it, it warms my heart and makes me really feel like crying. i really cant think of a way to thank them enough. i've given them problems since young and after this experience, i think i should really wake up and learn from this mistake. i've always been the little princess at home, making everyone so worried for me. i've never made them proud of me in my whole life before. but it's still never too late. "mum, rendy kor, rough kor, shermaine jie, da sao, i've learnt from this big mistake i've made and will prove that i can make it through my future by myself. i'm really very grateful for the love and care you guys have shown me. i'm really very very grateful. i wont let any one of you worry ever again. (: I LOVE YOU!" action speaks louder den words so.. WAIT AND SEE! (: heh.
asked my 2nd brother's gf to help me check out on the o'lvl intake next yr. i'm not gonna give up halfway again! think i'll be going into masters and degree after my o'lvls. might be going into mass comm or maybe marketing and econs. i know everyone is just so sick of me saying this over and over again but this time, i wont let myself fail again. NEVER! i will suceed!
owells, been craving for SO many things to eat today but i'm so restricted from eating everything. i had to force pork liver down my throat today. and the mee sua was so plain pls. all i had for lunch was mee sua with pork liver and pork. lucky its gonna be only for a meal. but i still have to force pork liver down my throat for the next one week. i've never ever eaten pork liver since young. once i taste it, i'd wan to vomit but well, i have no choice. my 2nd brother just went down to get food for me. (: i'm dead hungry pls!
oh ya, met up with dearest twinnie and my little short bitch yesterday. they came up to my place. how sweet right? heh. twinnie changed so muchh!!!!! she keep talking about studying nowadays. -.- it's a good thing la but so UNBELIEVABLE! ha. and i'm glad ker found her right(?) one. haha. they're like so cute together!
okay, my love called after i finished my op. i guess he was busy so din really talk much. cant ask for much also ma hor? but he like dont really care leh! -pouts- maybe really cos he was busy la. but he called yesterday when i told him i very scared to go for the op. den while he was working, he accompanied me on the phone. well, i guess he doesnt know how to show much care. he kept telling me he's not in a position to control what i do but i dont mind. i really dont mind. i seem so distant from him. bo bian, my boss ma. haha. oh, dear promised a mini schnauzer for my bdae. WHEE! but my bdae is so far away..
my blog is really boring. yes yes, twinnie's out = MUCH MORE pics!
finally voiced out to "her" that i'm with him. felt so much better. though she said its okay, but i could feel the hurt inside her. i feel so bad. but somethings just cant be controlled nor forced right? since they've been friends for so long already. i din become a third party between them either. but i felt bad cos i actually know she still loves him deeply and i kept our relationship from her. owells, now everything's settled and i hope she'll move on. i know my position. and am ready and mentally prepared for the worse. (:
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