left work early today. wasnt feeling very good. chatted with frederick abt some stuffs. somehow the topic we were at, kinda got me feeling upset. there is something i cant go around telling people abt. and its really troubling me. dunno why suddenly i feel so down. its not abt my relationship.. i really need to cry out to someone. but i cant bring myself to break down in front of my friends. i dont wan anyone to worry too much abt me. but it really kills to keep this pain to myself. sigh. yes, i may seem happy every single day cos i wan to be happy and not let myself think too much. but today i just cant control my emotions. decided to leave work early cos i was afraid i'd just break down in front of everyone..

even my relationship doesnt seem right. i tend to think too much. sometimes i really wish i know what he's thinking or what he really feels. i just have too much doubts. tried to put it away but it aint that easy. i find it hard to trust him totally. not that i dont wan to. i'm just afraid i'll go through another heartache. maybe time will tell, I HOPE. he already gave me many chances to think whether i really wan this relationship to work out. i chose the answer yes so i'll just accept it. no regrets. all i wish for now, in this relationship is for him to show a little more love. its not too much to ask for, is it?

alright, i shall stop being emo. was supposed to get my beauty sleep but cant get to sleep cos i feel i really needed to pour out some thoughts. owells, now i feel a little better. i seriously need to get more sleep. havent been sleeping well nowadays. plus i gotta go town with ker and group tmr. so i guess i'll just end here for now.

Good Night Peeps.